“Learning more will increase knowledge, but only attempting more will reduce fear. The more you try it, the less you will fear it.”   -James Clear

Have you ever felt like you’re in a slingshot, and someone is pulling back the string and you are about to explode into the universe?

My husband and I have been leading a small group study at our church. Voluntarily. Submitting to the gut punch of guilt that church leaders skillfully wield, we stepped in… over our heads. Treading water, fostering others’ growth – and ours, learning new ways to approach the many circumstances, episodes, and problems of life.  As humans, though created by God, we are all prone to being prisoners of our own pretensions and not mindful of His guidance… so why did our church leaders feel that small group leaders, such as we, could do better?

Though my husband skillfully queries motivations, reasons, and requests, I seldom do. I just raised my hand or nodded my head “yes.” Again, in over my head, though I held my head high, wearing the crown that comes from being the daughter of a King (think about it, church people), scrambling, learning, keeping abreast of my fears. Adventure, laced with fear, propels personal growth.

The study is based on AA’s famous and highly successful twelve-step program. Do what you fear, the founders’ wisdom proclaimed.

“You attract what you fear” is a psychological substrate. Further, “fear not” is the most stated phrase in the Bible.

OMG, I’m so afraid of 500 million dollars, a half-billion bucks of walking around money – bring it!

My husband and I just returned from our 50th anniversary trip, a Columbia River Gorge cruise – whoopee! It was a bit rainy, as expected in that area of our country, yet still sublime. We intend to travel more… after I recover from my second knee replacement,.. For this procedure, I have faith in my surgeon and my wonderful caregiving husband.

I fear not. I will “just do it.”